Yesterday was a rotten day at work. My boss made a fool out of me. To top it off, he was ignorant to me in front of someone else who I really like and respect. Rather than speak up and defend myself, I was so shocked that I shut down. I find that this is my typical reaction to ignorant comments and rude behavior. It takes me completely off guard and I suddenly become mute.
My husband made a really good point last night. We spend the majority of our evenings discussing this man and how he seems to enjoy treating people like dirt. I lose sleep over his behavior and some mornings, it's the first thing that enters my mind upon waking. I just can't for the life of me understand how a person can be so miserable and feel so comfortable with spreading this misery around to others. Honest to God, he is the most negative human being I have ever met. When we first met, I did my best to be overly kind, to compensate for his negativity. I quickly discovered that this was the most draining road to take. I resigned myself to accepting (although not absorbing) his negativity. But some days, it still gets the better of me. It's incredible how one person's unhappiness can quickly spread. I have seen it at work in action. It's quite an amazing thing to watch.
So from now on, I will expect this kind of behavior and react accordingly. I will never let my guard down. The next time I am treated poorly by this individual, I will react as I would react to anyone else treating my poorly. I will call up the old scrappy me who was well able to deal with people like this. If I need to, I will even pack up my things and leave.
Keeping silent has done me no favors.
Lesson for yesterday: Be loud and be proud!
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